My dude, I was literally banned for and blackballed for years by communities in this game that accused me of spreading porn as a minor. Trust me, I get how this game can make you lose it sometimes -- but you've got to be willing to step away from the keyboard when it starts making you act like this. This game isn't going to be around in 10 years, I hope, but the impacts we all have on each other will. Don't let this escalating madness be how we remember you.
There is no shame in admitting you need to seek help, I struggled with it once myself and trust me, you need to disengage from this and go and see someone. Else you while eventually find that there is no where on this game you can go. As I said, there is no shame in seeking assistance and the healing process can only begin by an admission that you need help. Please, do whats best for you, disengage from this game for a while and go and see someone. You will find yourself infinitely better off for it in the long term.
Im kind of low key sad that hes come back with 4 alts at least since his ban and Ive not seen a single one. All the posts are gone by the time I get one. Kudos to the efficiency of the admins and all but I need to see that drama.