Are you serious? Is it not clear to you at this stage that your own toxic and deeply troubling behavior, to the point of the RL illegality of death threats, are not wanted in this community, nor will they be allowed.
It's both unhealthy for yourself and your target to engage in this type of harassment. This is just a video game, honestly a pretty frustrating and bad one that harkens back to old play by post RP days of the early 2000s. This game shouldn't bother you that much, and the fact that it does means that there's something more going on. I hope you get the help you need, Whitmark, but stop doing what you're doing to our community members.